Hunger if I am strong, will you lean on me? if I am sick, will you heal me? if I am lonely, will you need me? if I am hungry, will you feed me? hunger has a romance it calls you by your name the acid never goes away (and) you know you must remain nature read in truth and clause she harvests love at night people scurry to and fro try to stay out of sight hunger only tells you when you think it's time to eat poor kids wait in line for rice and rich kids don't eat meat hunger has a romance it haunts you in your dreams can't touch something inside your head that crawls in between the seams you search your soul for lasting truth and all you find is pain the naked self is dangerous like the homeless in the rain hunger only tells you when you think it's time to eat poor kids wait in line for rice and rich kids don't eat meat hunger has a romance I'm hungry right now! stampede in secret a circle of wheat should we slaughter a sacred cow? if it's happiness to rule the world we'll fiddle while burning Rome you want to know the mind of god (but) you're afraid to be alone hunger only tells you when you think it's time to eat poor kids wait in line for rice and rich kids don't eat meat hunger has a romance the monkey rides a goat whistling down the empty street and clawing at your coat hunger has a romance (there's) no virtue in these veins it matters how you got here - in silence or insane 2/10/94 Choices choices ... cruel and tender … always ... return to sender you try to free yourself from love the pain you get won't go away you hang your heart on some new hope and deal with their shit every day you think you're making choices, but it all turns out the same... why not do it differently, and prove you're not insane? so then you quit your dead end job you say it's time to get your share you buy some books and study hard and make your boss a millionaire choices ... cruel and tender … always ... return to sender thumb your nose at the trendy crowd no one tells you what to do but you get tired of being alone and tap your toes to top ten tunes you think you're making choices, but it all turns out the same... why not do it differently, and prove you're not insane? you wrote a song about your girl it always used to make her smile but now that she has gone away shouldn't you let it rest a while? make a choice! 1/28/97 Somebody Else's Well I try to make you a happy home, a place you'd like to stay Everything the way you want but still you go away I sit here alone and faithful, but it feels like hell - You've been getting water from somebody else's well! I know it isn't easy to come home to me each night But we've been through so much by now, that ought to hold us tight! So why is there always one more thing that breaks the magic spell? Like you still getting water from somebody else's well! When I came home this morning - I found an empty house I have no idea where you are - or why you were going out Your pocketbook is full of receipts from some hotel You've been getting water from somebody else's well! I look around me all the time, I talk to all my friends They tell me this and they tell me that, such stories with bitter ends The cat is only out of sight but the mice don't hear the bell Too many people getting water from somebody else's well! A week goes by, a month or two, and everything seems fine You're smiling in the candlelight, and drinking up my wine You try to hide the worst of the signs but I recognize that smell - You're still getting water from somebody else's well! 7/7/98 Believe I don't believe in eternal flames, or what people call divine I don't believe in innocence, but really, I don't mind I don't believe in happiness, and I don't believe in pain I don't think that there is any more, than chemicals in my brain I believe in me, and I believe in you - and I believe that if we try, there's nothing we can't do I don't believe in right or wrong, don't dream of hope or faith I don't believe that locking doors will ever make us safe. I don't believe in vengeance, and I don't believe in spite, and I don't believe that it's a sin, if you want to spend the night I believe in me, and I believe in you - and I believe that if we try, there's nothing we can't do I don't believe in abstinence, we should all be getting laid some are young and some are old, and sometimes we get paid... I don't believe romance is dead, every day's your Valentine's and I don't believe fools fall in love, but it happens all the time! I believe in me, and I believe in you - and I believe that if we try, there's nothing we can't do I don't believe in elves or ghosts, don't believe in magic spells I don't believe in fate or prophets, paradise or hell I don't believe the earth is beaten, just bloody, black, and blue And promises are lies not facts, in time they'll come untrue I believe in me, and I believe in you - and I believe that if we try, there's nothing we can't do I don't believe your gods'll save you, that ain't what praying's for, and I don't believe we'll find a cure, while the rich still eat the poor I don't believe in nations, or their wars that I despise Young men die for old men's dreams, is that what we call wise? I believe in me, and I believe in you - and I believe that if we try, there's nothing we can't do 5/6/98 I Stand Alone I stand alone You've been here too I get so scared Every time I lose you And when I think of all the times I hurt you badly I wish that I could take back every single word And when I think I'll never kiss your perfect lips again I wish that I could take back every word You walk away We just take turns Hurting each other We never learn And when I think of how we used to fight and holler I guess I know exactly what you're leaving for And when I think you might be holding someone else tonight I wish that you would walk back through that door It gets so cold Without a friend Wondering what I did To make it end... And when I think of what you told me as you left me I wish I had never ever heard those words And when I think I'll never kiss your perfect lips again I wish that they had never said those words I stand alone You've been here too I get so scared Every time I lose you I get so scared Every time I love you 6/7/98 Impressions of a Sunset Well, it seems like only yesterday I remember the way you held my hand How could we have lost our way How can I make you understand? While you waited and suffered in hope I was really just losing ground Trying those wrong turns in the road Searching for a love you thought I'd found 'Cause you loved me And I only let you down I just couldn't see Your smile behind my frown A torment of uncertain dreams Wonder what might be your reward? You got drunk and did foolish things While I learned what couldn't be taught 'Cause you loved me And I only let you down I just couldn't see Your smile behind my frown (I feel us) slip away (I remember) what we had (All those) happy days (Why did it have to) turn out sad? So now I know what'll never free me Don't try loving while you're still broke I've paid the price, and oh so dearly It cost me you and I hurt us both 'Cause you loved me And I only let you down I just couldn't see Your smile behind my frown Well, it seems like only yesterday I remember the way you held my hand 9/12/96 Lemonfishbutter squeeze your juice into a glass membranes aching to and fro get a grip against that pull that tidal surge that we all know climbing ladders and chasing bait gills that ache with every pulse foaming waves slip in and out a thunderstorm about to burst two dorsal fins that crest the surf a dark eye like your gaping mouth scaling tailspins to new depths a flooded dam that leaves no doubt squeeze your juice into a glass membranes aching to and fro get a grip against that pull that tidal surge that we all know (lemon fish butter - satisfy your soul) 12/29/94 Shambles the shambles are in the freezer blood dripping out the door a bitter wine is brewing much too strong to pour night fell too far to break a dawn in shades of grey underground the air is damp city on your back today? glints of teeth and shards of glass half shut eyes let in the breath empty hearts and anguished sighs paint your nails the stain of death rumor has it talk is cheap I'm here to avenge that lie etch a dying hope in stone A stranger's tongue, a wiser eye June 96 Good Love How come bad love sticks around so long, why does the pain take up so much time? How come the bad love sticks around so long - and the good love is so hard to find? You know I've had the blues, baby, damn right I've had the blues! They say that life is full of blues, woman, it's just one thing you'll never lose. Some good women have up and left me, yeah well some good ones, they went away. Some good women they left and hurt me - and I hurt some good ones in my day. You know I've had the blues, baby, how come the pain takes up so much time? Some fine women they left and hurt me - and well you know... that good love is so hard to find. 3/8/02 Stupid Global Village Mothers grab your babies and hold them to your breast Somewhere something's happening and they say your town might be next You hear reports of gunfire and terrible misdeeds There's a time bomb ticking somewhere and they say it's coming home to breed There's panic in the streets and we're all tuning to the news Well something happened somewhere as if it happened here to you There's poison in the water and cancer in the air! But it makes for lousy television which makes it really hard to care Across the globe a bullet rips through unsuspecting flesh And somehow someone scary says that your town could be next There's poison in the water and cancer in the air! But it makes for lousy television which makes it really hard to care Stupid global village well it didn't happen here There are far more things that matter than drowning in your fear 9/23/04 exit wound we evolved to eat this planet green stuff growing everywhere monsters prowl around in the dark and we all depend on its atmosphere ... oxygen helps you rust your food oxygen helps you rust your food oxygen helps you rust your food we swarm all over this tiny globe no one cleans up the awful mess bodies piled up all over each other even people you thought were blessed lithium helps you digest your friends lithium helps you digest your friends lithium helps you digest your friends we hardly understand our world we tinker, we treasure and we fiddle killing and eating for entertainment we never learned to solve the riddle suicide scratches your itchy soul suicide scratches your aching soul suicide scratches your empty soul oxygen helps you rust your food lithium helps you digest your friends suicide scratches your empty soul (assorted screams...) hold everything secure September 95 You Must Be Crazy You must be crazy, to still be seeing me you've met somebody who really makes you feel you shouldn't be here, you're taking such a risk you could throw it all away for just another kiss You must be crazy, to juggle feelings like you do you've found someone who really wants you too the past weighs down on us, like a hundred pounds of lead while his smile makes lightning go shooting through your head You must be crazy, we've been dying in our dreams why do you come back to relive this played out scene your nightmares haunt you, you know we can't escape grow some wings now girl this just can't be your fate You must be crazy, from a long long time ago I won your heart once but I can't return that love you know take your chance now, he's crying in the night you must do better and treat your sweet heart right You must be crazy, to still be seeing me June 98 Trust The key to happiness Is not to be found in another It lies dormant in your heart Waiting Should you find it they will come - For they all want a little piece of that joy Happiness is never constant It flits through your heart like a butterfly on a sunny day Happiness... Even when the clouds Cast their shadow on your face To know it: Happiness - Is to never lose it throughout all of life's pain, and trials Happiness! Happiness... Come back, where are you? I knew you once... 12/11/02 - 5 AM Out of Beer We're out of beer! We are all out of beer! There is no more beer, here! We're out of beer! Let's get out of here! Autumn 2003