nobody knows what it's like to love a man
who doesn't know if he wants you today
his smile hides his heart behind a wall
the stones keep his secrets safe from anything I say

his eyes light up my whole world

nobody knows what it's like to love a man
he comes and he goes without warning me to wait
nobody else knows their future as well as me
I eat my love in morsels but I choke on lumps of hate

his eyes light up my whole world
someday he'll be mine (twice)
oh yes he will

nobody knows what it's like to wake up crying
I'll tell you it's all just like some tragic play
I worry every word, every look that makes me shiver
our hearts are torn to pieces by their past every day

repeat

nobody knows what it's like to love a man
whose dreams slip in when you close your eyes
you could never feel this agony, I know
I too high up in the clouds to just capsize

repeat

but strip away the varnish, and you'll have to agree
cut right across to the grain, it's so lonely being me
I got scars on my heart that ache til I bleed
I lost my life in there, and I don't know how to heal

9/2/97